Just two songs that have been stuck in my head!!

First off, the Adele song called "Make You Feel My Love" on here is how I feel at the current moment especially with my love. It is also the kind of music I as an artist want to sing. Oh ans it's the song me and Frank are dancing to at our wedding...= ) The Second song is a song by Coheed and Cambria called "Mother Superior" that I love. This song was the original song we where going to dance to but we changed it lol..it's still beautiful...ionno...enjoy = )

I'm Getting Married!!!!

I'm getting married on June 11, 2011 to the most amazing man I have and will ever have met.  

His name is Frank and he makes me the happiest person in the world. There is nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for him and he wouldn't do for me. I would go to the ends of the world just to hear him say my name. I've known Frank for 6 years now and any moment without him near hurts me more than anything could possibly. I knew from the moment that we met I couldn't live my entire life without him I belong with him and him with me.  Our relationship and how we came to be is a complicated one but, we are together none the less and I wouldn't have it any other way. He makes me happy and helps me make my dreams come true.  I may be young but when a love like this comes into your life hold on to it and never let it go. Never let anyone tell you that what you are doing because you love someone is wrong.... Thats what happened to me and I ignored them and am happy....<3
Well...thats my love rant for now because I can go on forever talking about him....= )

So thats my life up till now I suppose....

BRAVO!!

So ok..I am in this band and our name is Bravo. Our style of music is mostly funk, blues, rock. And I am sooo pumped!!! Because we are working with a publications dude and a manager, and a vocal coach and tons of other people who are helping to make up FAMOUS!!! OMG!!! And we as a band there are 7 of us all together) might have a chance to go to Cali to promote us further when we are known more in Chicago!!! This is sooo exciting!!! And I am so happy that this is happening in my life! Everything is turning out for the better and I couldn't be happier!! So when we have gigs you all have to come and see us! We could us all the support we can get!! YAY LIFE!! I mean I still would like to do my own thing eventually and on the side as well, I mean that's harder and I just need to get together with someone to make beats and stuff to my lyrics and help me put together lyrics and put out demo's and stuff! So if there is anyone out there that knows someone who could do that for me I would greatly appreciate feedback. = ) So yeah that's life up to this point...And man is it getting exciting. Here are some pics of us at our first and last gig as Bravo 1...

I can't ever really decipher what I'm truly running from
Life?
Love?
Change?
Hurt?
You.
That's always a statement ,never a question.
Why do I constantly run from an imaginary four letter word that could quite
possibly make me happy for once?
Maybe it's you I'm holding on to and can't let go....
Maybe I don't really love you in the complete sense of the word..?..
Maybe I am in love...With the devil...
It's funny though now that I think about it...
And maybe I'm not running at all I'm Changing...
Changing right in front of your eyes and you can't even see it
Or you do and you can't accept the fact that I am this entirely different person
and she was right...you don't need me.
No wait I know who I am but you obviously don't.....Who Does for that matter.
Oh "if YOU are the answer we surely are going to hell"....
THEN AGAIN YOU ARE THE DEVIL...
But
he's Not...
So am I just scared of being "saved" or actually being loved by someone "TRUE"?
?
Or am I petrified of lossing you because you I do love?
Maybe...I'm
Truly, possibly, entirely, surely scared and actually petrified....

But hey if you could love me really this should make sense to you....

At least like it does me.........

You...

You say you Love me, and I promise I'll never leave.You tell me you need me and sucome to your every need.You kiss me and my body becomes weak.You speak of forever and that's all I'll ever need.You put your arms around me and I know I am safe.You always stand beside me and never fade away.You are my one true constant and I'd have it no other way.You're my life, my love, my world, my partner.You're my Earth, my sky, my solid ground.You're my song, my heart, my strength.

You make me feel more than I’ve ever felt in my whole life. Thank you for making me happy when I needed to be. Thank you for making me laugh when I cry. Thank you for loving hopeless ol me. Thank you for curing my insomnia. Thank you for being you even though I’m not quite me.

My Devil

Where you really here? Did you ever care about me love? Or did I wander into a dream about you? When I try to push back the memories they break through in my head and begin to scream oh…oh you. I know I was just a temporary score. A silly girl who stumbled through your door oh love oh you. I guess I wandered in to far. N sure. I probably fell for your guitar. Oh, but you need to know. 

Chorus I: Did you love me? That I need to know. I need that reassurance; I need a cure, for this temporary state of living. Just come on fool my heart. Tell me a lie to keep me living.

You're the devil in my heart. You're the reason my life's always falling apart. And your constant screaming into the microphone is stuck in my head all damn daylong. All I was looking for was a feeling of not being alone but with you I lost I became cold, I was truly alone.

Chorus II: Just tell me you love me! That I need to hear. I need your acceptance, I need your fix. Come on! Fool my heart for one last time. Tell me, tell me you love me so I can stay alive tell me a lie.

I guess I needed to feel strong. But I became weak. And it's true I still fell in love with you. Dam! God Damn its true I never really did get through to you. Cause you where never really here only the phantom of your silhouette. No you where never really here, your just a figment of what we could have had. No you where never really here. I was just a pawn in your game a foolish girl you put to shame.


Chorus III: I Love You! That's all I need to hear. That's all I need to numb the pain. Just fake it. You're good at it anyway those three word's you always played. Do it again, say it one last time. I don't even care just cross that line. Lie to me to keep me alive for one more night. Tell me a lie.




***By the way YES I do write all my own "music" and "poetry" And they are all color coated for a reason is you look back to one of my prior blogs on my inspiration I believe and you can see who all the songs are wrote for. = ) ****

Music for my heart and soul.

Music is my drive, my passion, my energy.
Music is the air I breath, my safe haven, my rock.
Music is my flow, my beat, the rhythm in which my heart beats.
Music is my reason, my life, my soul.
Music is my best friend, my lover, my man.

Love is my drive, my passion, my energy.
Love is the air I breath, my safe haven, my rock.
Love is my flow, my beat, the rhythm in which my heart beats.
Love is my reason, my life, my soul.
Love is my best friend, my lover, my man.


He is my drive, my passion, my energy.He is the air I breath, my safe haven, my rock.
He is my flow, my beat, the rhythm in which my heart beats.
He is my reason, my life, my soul.
He is my best friend, my lover, my man.

He gives me the music that ignites my soul and sets our love on fire.
He is my first love, my last love, my Frank.